MY LEARNING ECOLOGY

This was an exercise in trying to draw a root out ways of noticing how my learning happens, whether it be in community whether it is my process whether it is my relationships or my will and capability. What constraints am I putting on my work what obstacles are going come. A general kind of overview. What came up for me was burnout and expanding The Bonobo Experience, whilst looking at how bonobos would run a social enterprise.

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The landscape of year two

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 This slide is a map which I’m going to reference again and again. This will tighten up my project and keep me on track.

Moving through process

From one session to the next I feel I am finding a way to converse with this Earth. I want to explore and celibate it, which is why it was hard to produce the glaze. These toxic minerals  and chemicals are killing the material they are representing. The next stage is finding ecoceramics products. 

An inspiration

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An inspiration

This book has enabled me to reconsider my community and the share philosophy. It’s very easy to get selfish in a world that promotes it as an asset.

 

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Tutorial: This is my direction at the end of year 1

QUESTION HOW CAN WE GET OUT OF OUR OWN WAY TO REALISE OUR SELF POTENTIAL? PAUL ASKED? WHAT ARE YOU PRODUCING AT THE END OF THE COURSE. ANSWER IS: MAYBE A MINI RITUAL & BONOBO EXPERIENCE. ASK MYSELF THE QUESTION: THIS IS WHAT I KNOW NOW BECAUSE OF WHAT I DID TWO YEARS AGO NEXT INTERVENTION IS: COLLABORATE. GET A SHAMAN TO RUN A RITUAL WITH AN INTENTION OF SEXUALITY, THEN I RUN A BONOBO WORKSHOP LOOK INTO 5-MEO DMT USE ART AS EXPRESSION OF EXPERIENCE'S. BONOBO AND RITUAL EXPERIENCE

Workshops provide cash for orphaned bonobos

Last year i was invited to go on retreat with Tantra4Gaymen. I provided several levels of The Bonobo Experience, from the tame to the wild. Due to the kind and generous men on the retreat we where able to raise a significant amount of money for the bonobos’ over in the Congo at the Lola Ya Bonobo sanctuary http://www.lolayabonobo.org/

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A reflection on learning

As I am doing my learning log I have noticed how frustrated and elated I get when I am confronted with a tech issues and when I solve it. I was in a dilemma around where to blog. My blog arts became a monster and now i'm using my Bonobo sites blog. I am inspired to blog about this process because in getting geeky about the blog. I am moving through a lot of barriers and blocks around tech and writing.

 

I have reflected on what Richard said a few weeks back. When we have difficulty with something we want o look past it to a clear path, but in actual face we should be focusing on the thing that’s in the way and exploring that. I couldn’t agree more, and this is evidence of that.

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CREATING FILM AND SCULPTURE FROM THE GILLS OF A MUSHROOM

THIS WAS A POINT IN THE CREATIVE PROCESS WHERE I REALISED I WAS CONNECTING WITH THE MUSHROOM AND THAT I HAD FOUND SOMETHING VERY SPECIAL THAT I COULD WORK FROM
THIS WAS A VERY SIMPLE TEST TO SEE IF I COULD BEGIN TO REPLICATE THE SHAPE OF THE GILLS WHEN A MUSHROOM MANIPULATED. FROM THIS I REALISED I COULD EXTRUDE RIBBONS OF CLAY TO DEVELOP THE WORK FURTHER. I AM REALLY KEEN TO LEARN MORE ABOUT THE PROCESSES INVOLVED IN THE GENERAL AREA OF CERAMICS, FROM SLIP CASTING TO WORKING WITH GLAZE.

IT WAS TWENTY YEARS AGO WHEN I STARTED USING CLAY AS A MATERIAL FOR EXPLORATION AT UNIVERSITY. WHEN I WAS IN THE CERAMICS STUDIO AT CSM THIS FRIDAY I WAS WISKED BACK TO A WONDER PLACE OF LEARNING. WHILST I WAS TESTING CREATING AND PLAYING I FELT A PROFOUND SENSE OF THE PRIMORDIAL THE PREHISTORIC THE ANCIENT.

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Growing Oyster mushrooms

I WENT ON A MUSHROOM GROWING COURSE BECAUSE I AM INTERESTED IN THE PROCESS OF CULTIVATION. I THIS REQUIRES MUCH PATIENCE BUT IT WAS WORTH IT. I FOUND IT INCREDIBLE. IT GREW TO THE SHAPE OF A PENIS

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IT WAS AMAZING TO DISCOVER THAT THE MYCELIUM NEEDS TO BE TRIGGERED BY SHOCK, THIS MAKES IT FRUIT AND OUT POP THE MUSHROOMS. TO DO THIS I NEED TO SUBMERGE THE MYCELIUM FOR 6 HOURS TO FORCE A SHOCK ON THE ORGANISM

A FORAY

Click title to UTUBE channel. After my interest into Psychadelic’s i chose to go foraging in Nottinghamshire. this was part of my need to connect with nature and collect and study the fungus. I am wanting to explore clay and feel that this earthy pursuit could help me connect with a very ancient process.

THE EXPERIENCE WAS CONNECTED AND INTUNE WITH NATURE AND THE TIME OF YEAR. I AIM TO MAKE SOME SHORT FILMS AND RECONSTRUCT THE GILLS OF FRESH AND DRIED IN CLAY. CREATIVE PROCESS IS GOING TO GROUND ME IS AN ANCIENT PROCESS.

VIDEO JOURNAL

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DID QUESTIONAIRE QUOTES PSYCHADELIC INVERVENTION FOR BONOBO EXPERIENCE BLOGGING STARTED ON BONOBOHOUSE LINDSEY JORDON MEETING, LINKED TO DR DAVID LUKE MARY ONBARD, CAN DO ADMIN CONTECTED JESS GOM SASHA PITCHED BONOBO EXPERIENCE, ENERGISED AND GOT MOJO BACK SEX AND GENDER SELF REALISE THOUGH PYSCHADELICS HAVE A RITUAL JOUNEY TO ASSIS

THE XPLORE WORKSHOPS #3

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CHALLENGING WORKSHOP OPEN SEXUAL SPACE TOO MANY MALE NOT ENOUGH FEMALES. CONCERNS AROUND HETEROSEXUAL DYNAMICS TEACHING NO- HET TO A HET CULTURE MAKE MALES INSECURE?? FEMALES OVERWHELMED?? MAKE EQUALE NUMBERS. TRIED TO DEFUSE THE INTENSE ENERGY. HAND CLEANING STATION. QUEER WOMAN HAD DIFFICULT TIME HAD A 40 MIN DEBRIEF AFTER BUILD A SISTERHOOD INNER TRIBE TO BUILD POWER, WITNESSED BY MALES. MISTAKE WAS NOT STICKING TO DESIGNED WORKSHOP, GROUPS WITH DOM FEMALES AND YOUNG FEMALE EXERCISE MALE AGGRESSOR COULD BE DOMINATED BY FEMALE GROUP, I DID NOT DO THIS. A SHAME I BALED OUT. INSTEAD OPTED FOR OPEN PLAY WHICH WAS DIFFICULT, I MADE THE MISTAKE OF SAYING 'MATING SEASON' THIS WAS SOMETHING I DIDN'T WANT TO SAY. THIS CHANGED THE SPACE TO A HUMAN SPACE, AND MATING IS FOR OFFSPRING. NOT A GOOD MOVE. HAVE FEMALES RUN TBE IN HETEROSEXUAL SPACE, EMPOWERING THE SISTERHOOD, ALSO HAVE BONOBO'S THAT ARE SAFE GUARDING THAT PROCESS BY STIMULATING POSITIVE BEHAVIOUR

THE XPLORE WORKSHOPS #2

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HAND SIGNAL DEMO, GREAT ICE BREAKER WORRIED IF PEOPLE GOT BORED. GET LOTS OF FEEDBACK FORMS GREAT DATA!! GROUPS OF SIX, FOOD EXCLUSION FOR ONE THEN TREAT AND INDULGE OUTSIDER BEST BIRTHING RITUAL, LEARNT FROM PREVIOUS WORKSHOPS FAILURES BIRTHING RITUAL I STAYED STILL, CLOSED MY EYES AND VISUALISED SETTING AND PAINTED A PICTURE FOR GROUP. MOTHER HAD SISTERS TO AID HER ENCOURAGED THEM TO ROTATE TO COME OUT OF BIRTHING CANAL. ENJOYED THIS WORKSHOP WAS REALLY FULFILLED.

THE XPLORE WORKSHOPS #1

1st XPLORE WORKSHOP 100 PEOPLE. 1 DEF. 1 DISABLE. JO JO AND ROMAINE GREAT LIKED STANDING AND TALKING. PANTHERS WERE GREAT IN SPACE. RE ORDERED CHAOS IMAGINE IM MOST BORED AND AIM FOR BETTERING THAT. EXHAUSED SENSE OF DRED. EMAIL FROM UAL WORRIED ABOUT THE SAFTY OF PARTICIPANTS OVERWHELMED WILL MEET SAFEGAURDS COULD NOT REMOVE FROM XPLORE SITE WHAT IS THE BONOBO EXPERIENCE IN THE UAL CONTEXT STARTED INTERVIEWING PEOPLE ON CAMERA GOOD FOR DATA COLLECTION AND PROMO WORKSHOP, HAD TWO TRIBES MERGE IN BONOBO MANNER SPLITING THE GROUP WAS A GOOD IDEA BUT FELT LIKE RUNNING TWO WORKSHOPS. THINK MORE ABOUT TWO TRIBES AS FEMALES NEEDED MORE TIME. LOWER MUSIC SO PEOPLE CAN ENGAGE, LESS INTENSE HEARTBEAT LOWER FOR BIRTHING FEEDING TIME WAS GOOD

VIDEO JOURNAL STRETCH FESTIVAL BERLIN

Click in title for UTUBE channel. This is my video journal from my summer at the STRETCH FESTIVAL.

NSIGHT INTO DEMORALISATION. FEAR NOBODY WOULD COME SETTING UP SPACE WITH LOVE. LEOPARD DEATH

THE BONOBO EXPERIENCE GOT NOMINATED FOR THE SEXUAL FREEDOM AWARDS

THE BONOBO EXPERIENCE GOT NOMINATED FOR THE SEXUAL FREEDOM AWARDS

On Thursday we packed into the Hackney Showroom for the Sexual Freedom Awards. What a inspiring night. So many people working to create a safer and more tolerant world of the sexually open. We got nominated and the Bonobos’ received some exposure. What came from this was knowing the work was important for both Bonobo’s and Humans alike.

Reflection from Sexual freedom awards

I went to the Sexual freedom awards this evening. I have been nominated for somatic sexuality practitioner. I was nervous until the nomination’s for our category was read out. 

What I have learned from sasha’s is and tonight is that when I hear someone else reading out what I write I get really inspired my my work and I find the value and the purpose it this work.

I didn’t get an award but I realised that the award would have been nice but like the Grades of a Masters it’s not what drives me. I have got to feel the work, I must be moved by it. 

I am hoping that getting into the ceramic’s studio will bring a balanced aspect to the course and give me some thing tangible to develop, as my other work in intangible, the only physical lasting result is feedback. The work happen’s in a workshop setting and then is distributed out to the attendees.

One and the same xx